Blue Light

Darkness to the right,

Darkness to the left

Quiet, stillness, contemplation

A place we’ve all been

Respite from the day’s duties

Rejuvenate, prepare for another day

Blue light before me

The constant companion

I could sleep, I should slumber

Once again, it escapes me

Neck on pillow, back comfortably resting

Mellow music meant to lull me away

Faint sounds of him sleeping near me

Warmth of protection covers me

The scene is set as it should be

A ritual of sorts known to all

Blue light still shining

The constant companion

I could sleep, I should slumber

Once again it escapes me

This dance in the dark

Knowing it will not allow

What my mind and body require

Words begin to form in my mind

I feel the thoughts illuminate

Wanting to be expressed

The blue light still shining

The constant companion

I could sleep, I should slumber

Once again it escapes me

Musings and Concerns

Some things I’ve really thought about. I don’t take my decisions lightly. We all want to get back to some kind of normalcy, but need each others’ help to do so. Just some other things I’ve questioned:

*What’s in that heart dewormer peeps are taking for Covid prevention?
*What’s in our processed food that so many often eat? It sure tastes good in many cases.
*What’s in or on our fruit and veggies that we often eat, organic or otherwise? Am I spending enough time cleaning them? I really love fruit!
*What’s in a polio vaccine and how often do I see it today?
*Why don’t I see measles more today? I remember it was different when I was a child.
*What’s in cancer meds that help so many get a second chance at life? It’s rough, I hear.
*What’s in the flu shot that has made my arm sore, but helped me not get a flu or serious respiratory issue for many years, even having an auto immune disease? I used to get them over and over in my earlier years, even as a child.
*What’s in the meds that I’ve taken for years to help me live a good life with Scleroderma when it could be so much worse?
*What exactly is in Tylenol that helps me feel a little bit better when my body or head aches?
*Why did peeps die so young before the 20th century? They often looked much older back then in pics I’ve seen.
*Why do so many women go to a hospital to have their babies now? They didn’t always.
*Why am I’m seeing death around me and then hearing peeps were unvaccinated, but could have been?
*Why am I seeing my friends and family so grief stricken? It’s all around lately.
*Why are peeps screaming freedom and liberty over a health and safety issue?
*Why is it a Trump or Biden, Republican or Democrat, Christian or not, Buddhist or Muslim… Do I really feel so correct in my convictions that I refuse to consider other points of view? Have I ever been wrong in something I once believed strongly?
*Why do peeps argue about our founding fathers’ ideas, but not see that Church and State are separate or meant to be?
*Why did the men in planes scream, “Allahu Akbar,” when taking over a plane and killing so many on Sept. 11? They certainly felt they were doing God’s work and I do not hate all Muslims because of these few.
*Why can I see love and goodness in individuals of all types, skin color, beliefs, ethnicities… when other hate so easily?
*Why are people so afraid of others that may look or act different, enough to create violence over it?
*Why are sports and entertainment peeps paid so much, valued so highly, when people with real value to our growth like teachers, speech therapists, autism specialists, road construction workers, nurses, and more not? Who has been really vital in society through the years, not to mention the pandemic?
*Why are parents and friends in the stands at their kids’ sporting events using foul language and fighting amongst themselves when sports are meant to teach teamwork and discipline?
*Why is it so important to keep the rich rich and the poor poor? Is there a way to combine capitalism with a bit of socialism to pull people up from poverty and dead ends? Heck, I love money, nice things, vacations… I would not be able to enjoy it all and see others suffer, however. I know I can’t help everyone, but even today, I give what I can and still live a great life.

Yes, my thoughts have gone all over the place. I just have such trouble understanding some things, but I do research, ponder, ask…

I know I will die one day. Everyone does. There’s no getting around it. Life is short. How I spend my time here – value, love, respect, empathy, compassion, understanding, purpose – is what I focus on. What more can I really do?

I may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but I know in my body and soul, I am a good person who cares. I try to understand, but some things make no sense to me. That’s all.